Hectic, emotionally and financially draining month... lots of work done mostly in my head rather than in writing or what people would like to label as "action" (I do most R&D work in my head and not putting it down.. hehe) most of the time, if the time comes that requires for me to get it done in writing or "action", you can be sure that whatever is written/done is thoroughly researched and qualified and I can get the writeup/work done in just a fraction of the time it would take for anyone to write a full blown proposal, report, or doing the "action" as professionally as intelligently as possible.
Whatever I want to do, how I want to do it, be it business or family matters, it's all in my head, from the planning, execution, expected deliverables, all the way to the expected revenues, how to get it, and all the plan B's and C's etc.
With all that in my head, it really requires me to block off "intruders" that may come from other people's nagging, instructions and orders (gosh I get loads of that), etc., what more if the "intruders" expect me to be financially involved... that would definitely ruin all the equations and relationships between all the different entities I've already made in my head.
So I block them off.
I do have priorities.. and they change as I see fit..
Rayhana is going to be 2 years old next week.. that sure brings out a smile in me.. syukur and proud of what she can do so far at her age.
Rayyan is realizing that much of the time has been more on us blaming him for Rayhana's crying etc that he occasionally seeks affection from both of us. He would sleep while holding my arm and sometimes would put his head on my shoulder while laying on the bed watching tv... that brings out a smile in me as well...
I have so much respect and love in Rayyan for tolerating Rayhana & us blaming him on many occasions.... I occasionally "test" him to see if whatever I did to him was harsh or not.. if I could bring out a smile in him, then it's all okay...
Smile!
:)
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